stillife, photo Katya Grokhovsky, 2010...New York City: on May 31st 2010, Memorial Day, Louise Bourgeois, 98, dies in hospital , as Marina Abramovic ends her now infamous performance in MOMA. Fate, Electricity and hope in the heated city. Second week in New York. Study trip. Consumed by art wholly and forever. Artoholic? absolutely. Humanist? perhaps. emotionalist? possible. sucker for tears? Marina provides and Thank You, Marina. Thank you, Louise. Putting my hand on my heart mentally, in re-enactment of Marina's gesture, I Thank these two artists, from yes, the bottom of the barrel of my heart, which, as I realize, once again, whilst observing Marina's tears and tasting my own, exists. Forever and behold.R.I.P Louise.
stillife, 2010, photo Katya GrokhovskyBlack Russian bread sandwiches, salami and avocado, Chelsea: 19th street, New York Arts Program dorms, 29th street, heat and nauseating smell of decay shooting up my nose, top bunk bed and fear of falling, mussels in coconut milk, Happy hour at Half-King bar, Angel Otero's studio and beer on the roof, gold paint and assistants....
Saya Woolfalk's studio and hundreds of pages of research: work hard, Saturday at Franklin Furnace, Brooklyn's 5th avenue, 2 apples for one dollar, pumpernickel bagel and 2 eggs, blueberries, mango and raspberries, pomegranate juice and vanilla rum, stories of old New York and Establishment of our holly art world: Tino Sehgal, this is propaganda, 2002, Polly Apfelbaum's studio: sequined scraps on the floor, skeptical optimism and finding the fuck you....
bad painting all around, teeth hurt by bad painting....
parents on skype, plans for San Francisco, overwhelmed, art overdosed and happily exhausted. Coffee and water, crepe with smoked salmon, shrimp salad and brushetta, mocchiato....I don't eat hot dogs from the stands on the corners of new york, cabana outpost and extra chicken burrito, thank you, passer-by attendance of Saturday mess at catholic Chelsea church, wishing for religion....art, Outsider porn: touching elbows with John Waters, Chelsea openings, Chinatown, 3 dollar soup and East village, free drinks, Vernita Nemec's stories, hot sticky nights and smelly streets, the walls are cooler than the sheets, The Kitchen and Baryshnikov Art centre: two part dance performance, bus transfer during intermission, only in new york: consumed and anxious, extreme shoulder and neck fatigue, bad pillow, french toast and rude awakening by fire alarm on Sunday morning, who done that?
stillife, photo Katya Grokhovsky
